Life with No. 2

 Life with number 2 is not as stressful as with number 1. 

When I had number 1, everybody say that breast milk is good. You definitely have to breast feed. And so I tried breast feeding. Number 1 suck a few times and refuse to continue. I thought maybe my posture was wrong. So I get the nurse to teach me. I tried but still they have to supplement the baby with formula milk. Infant milk is so darn expensive!!!

After we got discharge, I continue to try breastfeeding. I even bought a pump. I read online on how to increase the milk volume. So I tried every method available. When I should be resting in bed, I was up pumping, 1hour. Think they call it the power pump?? The massage lady massage my breast like she is washing clothes on the washing board. I pump till my aerola was bleeding. I ate whatever food that boost of being able to increase breast milk, i even ask my gynae for the milk boosting pill. Not cheap !!! Everything I did to no avail. And here I was stressed out over milk supply, there my MIL was saying supplement with formula milk. Baby is hungry.... Double stress.....( ⇀‸↼‶ )(//̀Д/́/)۶

I only manage to pump 10 to 20ml. With the pill, my milk volume increase to 30,40ml. It was pathetic. I can only feed 1 meal after several pumps. I feel so stressed and defeated. 

Looking back, I felt so stupid and silly for the sweat and tears because I couldn't produce milk. It is common to have no milk. I only realize it when I spoke to several moms who have the same issue as me. Now I feel like slapping those people who say :"Definitely will have milk!!!" Waste my time.

With number 2, I am more chill. I still breast feed, but after the baby refuse to suckle, and still hungry, I just supplement with formula milk. I stopped after one month. I didn't even suffer from any engorgement or pain...

Why make myself so tired right??? (•̀ ᴗ •́)

But number 2 came with her own set of problems. She refuse to nap and we all know kids must have their naps..... To save us from going crazy!!! Yes, that's right!!! ( ^ิ艸^ิﾟ)

So now, every morning, I start my journey of bringing her to different playgrounds to wear her down so she can nap for a long time and save myself from insanity.... (˃̣̣̥▽˂̣̣̥๑)

Takeaway: Don't bash yourself up just because you don't have milk. Ignore those naysayers...

Disclaimer: Everything written here are my personal opinion.

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